april arrives.

and i think i’m back to blogging!

to better things,

steph

curt is cool.

 my youngest brother.

return to everyday (soon)

enjoying the last little bit of our holiday.  regular posts to resume soon. 

to better things,

steph

perspective.

it’s been a rough couple of days (for a myriad of reasons, but mostly sleep deprivation) 

and this photo represents how i feel. 

black and white and gloomy and weepy and exhausted. 

rocky point park, bw trees

 but…. i’m trying to keep perspective that tomorrow is a new day and it might be better.

photo taken in same location, same park, same day, just a different angle. 

“smelling/noticing the roses” (if you will).

rocky point park, yellow flowers

to better things,

steph

july 9, 2008 update:

it seems my words and photos had a stronger impression than i meant them too.  sorry for the misinterpretation and thanks for concerned friends.  it was mostly a culmination of events that furled themselves into a giant ball and then flung itself into my face.  of course, compressed all in a few short hours. 

we are finally getting help for toddlergirl’s sensory processing disorder  and sleep issues, but it comes in the form of seeing four different doctors or health care professionals at one time.  this means appointments.  endlessly.  routine (which i am trying VERY hard to maintain, is hard to maintain when driving hours and waiting and explaining and figuring out).  i could give hugs and largely loaded coffee cards to some of these doctors who have helped us come to new understandings and coping mechanisms with toddlergirl.  most of these people are my heroes.  i could rave about them for a long time.  some have literally changed our daily life.  while other doctors (okay, one in particular) wants me to continue to graph every sleep and wake cycle endlessly.  it is tedious and i’ve already done it for him for a month.  (to get a sense of what it’s like: set your alarm to wake up at least 3 different intervals during the night and then get out of bed, resettle a kid that won’t sleep, and then remember it all for the morning, write it down, graph it, AND “please shade it”.  repeat almost every night for over 700+ nights to get a sense of sleep deprivation).  he doesn’t seem to understand a team concept and we feel as though we have to defend ourselves.  not my idea of a good time.  and especially not on 4 hours of sleep.  we were booked to see him that day.

my inquiring eyes noticed advertising for a festival and more searching led me to the fact that my super duper cool wedding scout locations were being taken over by an enormous caribbean festival (happening in a country, po-dunk kind of town).  now, who would expect that?  i’m thankful i found it out ahead of time and had time to rescout and now i have some great locations (better, maybe even?!) lined up for this weekend. 

that, my friends, is what was making me remind myself to:

1) take a deep breath and 2) keep it in perspective. 

perspective gained.  thanks for listening.

to better things,

steph

robin egg blue

nature’s palette inspires me. 

i absolutely love this shade of blue and the mossy/twig colours of the nest. 

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to better things,

steph

fielding requests for a motorbike

we’ve had very little sleep around here.  i think i possibly  had 3 hours of sleep last night.  toddlergirl may have had 6 hours, but it was very discombobulated.  she’s just can’t seem to sleep.

that’s why moments and photos like this one (taken last month) are rare:

 

(this photo was taken after 2 flights, a two hour car drive, and 20 distant relatives in one house.  she was finally exhausted).  

it’s the first time she’s fallen asleep with the light on and i could take a photo!  (okay… a slight exaggeration.  minus that first week of being a newborn and all, but other then that).

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in other complete randomness (or possibly because of our incredible lack of zzz’s)- toddlergirl stopped me today and said…

“mommy?  i would like a hot pink bike.  a motorbike.” 

(just to clarify she in fact did say motorbike and not a tricycle or bicycle).

i conceded.  but not until she’s 18. 

 

to better things (like happy-feels-like-monday, but it’s-actually-tuesday-already!)

steph

EDITED for comments:

a staple in our home is the ethical bean coffee  available at costco.  earthy and smoky tasting. 

i also like starbucks organic mexican shade grown coffee  and you can’t go wrong with their breakfast blend.

yes.  i should have bought stocks in a coffee company.  i usually drink about 3-4 cups a day.  which isn’t a crazy amount, but they are strong cups of coffee.  i add a splash of milk and a  teaspoon of organic cane sugar.

prairie pieces

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the view up here

… is pretty good.

 

“oh spring, you’re so damn sexy.”

    

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grandpa is great.

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